Friday, November 10, 2006

That's a Big Hole

My supper-free diet is down the drain, thanks to Chilli Chicken and Spicy Prawns. I can't believe I was eating three meals last night, each at 8pm, 12am and 4am, darn! Like it wasn't bad enough, tonight I had decided to have supper at St Kilda with Milyn. I was deciding between grocery shopping or supper before I saw her on MSN. Food, of course. I had scaloppine, spring rolls and oyster kilpatrick while Milyn had only wedges, hmm... this girl is a bad influence, she never says no to me, especially when it comes to food.

For some personal selfish reasons, I've called Dragon in KL. I could tell that he was rapturous to hear from me. I was very surprise that he actually offered to pick me up from the airport when I return. Call me shameless but I felt that he was actually very much looking forward to my return, and to spend time with me. We spoke for about twenty minutes, it was a pleasant conversation. He then told me that he can't get along with her girlfriend of two months, and is planning to bid farewell to her soon, ermm... good luck!

As for myself, from leaving the not-too-long-ago past and stepping in to the hitting-on-my-face future, there is a rather big hole marked 'closure'. I'm one of those obstinate people out there, who needs a closure for almost everything. Regardless of how badly written a book(except for course work, of course) is, I want to complete it; despite of how terrible a movie is, I have to finish it; irrespective of how obvious things are, I need a finale to achieve closure.

But while part of me felt that there is no rush in things, that I should take it slow and easy; another part of me was mildly alarmed. I realized that if I hang on to where I was long enough, I might've lose my sense of direction and let pass my boat. Besides, the boat can't be parking at the marina waiting for me forever, it costs too much.

For that reason, I have to end things to keep things going.

10 comments:

steph said...

There's never a good time, so do what you need to do... life is just beginning right?

love... ll said...

An exciting beginning in fact, ^_~

Deisy said...

woman, if I eat like what u did there, I sure grow sideway in 1 week.

It is always good to be young and not worried about gaining weight eh? Sob...jealous.

Roy Ho said...

Looks like you had a rough time in QLD.

Call me if you need some male perspective on whatever you went through.

And for your information, I went back to Crubar on your behalf to order the steak.

And you are 100% right...the chef makes steaks slightly more cooked than what you want it. I ordered medium rare, and it arrived medium to medium well...and I told the waitress to take it back.

roy ho said...

oh btw....how on earth do you post pictures on your blog?

love... ll said...

Deisy, you're right, young ones can afford to eat as much as they want. Unfortunately, I'm gradually dropping out of that category, I've put on a lot of weight, if you haven't noticed from my pictures. love you...

love... ll said...

Roy, don't worry, when I need you, I know who to call.

That was unfair that they changed the steak for you, while they had to argued with me for the whole evening. Don't beautiful people usually get the benefits?

Where you compose your entries, there's a photo image, click on it then you can upload pictures, my god...

Kelly Siew said...

wow that's a lot of food.

nvm, u've got a good figure, i'm sure u have a fast metabolism too *wink*

I found ur blog thru my xanga footprints. =) the beauty of tracker!

steph said...

roy: yes, the damn chef is blind i swear! they actually changed it for u. i don't believe it.. the manager was so rude to lynn!

love... ll said...

Kelly, I've put on so much weight, even the blind ones can tell, :( I'm hopeless. Hope you're well, ;)

Steph, that was unfair! I'm still pissed at CruBar!