Thursday, November 02, 2006
Bottom of the Pit, already
It was shattered, with lots of post-cleaning up to do. Happened when I was tidying up my place yesterday. That was one of my favourite colour. Why can't it be the ones that I have abandoned? Those that are off my favourite list?
I have to agree with Steph, it is ironic how the ones you want are never readily available and we're stuck with all these time fillers. Not exactly, in the case of nail polishes. Forlornly true, when it comes to men. Not that I'm looking for one to settle down with, nor I am unhappy with these time fillers. Pursuing what you can't achieve is always mesmerizing.
I've also learned that you can't plummet any lower when you've reached the bottom of the pit. So I shouldn't be afraid of acting like an idiot finding way out as that's the lowest I can get, can't be any worse. Besides, no one will see what I do down there besides myself, and perhaps, the person who pushed me down.
Hence, I'm going to take that second, third, forth and even fifth step, valiantly. It's either I get out of the pit, or I'll stay where I already am, what else is there for me to lose?
Thank you, Sasha.