Saturday, May 19, 2012

losing end

Amazing how we can be so affected by our jobs (note: I’ve a job not a career). Bean told me earlier this week that she couldn’t sleep. She was feeling like crap – stressing out about unfinished work, yet she’s mega unmotivated. She’s no desire to go to work and these piled-up tasks are just making it worse.

Come to think of it, we do spend 1/3 of our day at work. That’s a lot of time!

As for myself, I’m feeling like a big loser at the moment. There were times where I’d gone through stress and pressure, so much so that I lost sleep, dreamt about work and woke up feeling more tired than before I went to bed. But right now, it’s not about stress, not about pressure or competition. I just feel like I am a big (fat) loser! The fat part isn’t quite related to work I’ve to admit.

Just spoken to boss, she was all chirpy and hyped up – yes, she had a fabulous day on her side of work. Can’t remember when was the last time she sounded so happy. She was just saying how a good/bad day at work could alter one’s mood. Of course! My weekend is here so I shall keep my fingers crossed next week is a winning one. Anyway, I am going to NKOTBSB concert tonight, ticket courtesy of Daddy K, now that’s a winner!

Friday, May 18, 2012

recycling, sharing and taking

That night we were talking about former partners – whether they were husbands, boyfriends, dates, flings or just one-night-stands. We spoke about who we keep in touch with, who we never ever want to see again, and who had been “recycled”.

Right, we don’t want to date a virgin so in most cases, we’re going out with someone’s ex. That’s how relationships are right? You go out with one, things don’t work out, you move on. Meet another, psychotic, grab your clothes and run for the exit. This keeps going till you’ve found “the one” and announce that you’re out of these hunting games.

What about “recycling” within your group of friends?

Some many years ago, I was a firm believer in “I don’t want him, and I don’t want anyone else to have him”. Immature I must admit. That was a long time ago. Then I’ve adopted the idea of “let other’s play with my old toys, it’s dated and I’m not going to take a second look”. That made my life a lot easier, and happier. Everything that’s in my expired pile is free to good homes. One said she can’t take the awkwardness of seeing her ex with her friend – I don’t see it the same way unless we broke up yesterday and he’s with my friend today. We just have to be honest with our feelings – if I’m not over this person, it is my responsibility to make it known. When I don’t feel anything for this person anymore, he goes straight to the expired pile. Simple as that.

I, on the other hand, am not so cool about being a second hand user. Till date, I’ve not been out with any of my friend’s ex. I find it disgusting. I do know that we should never say never so yeah… Perhaps I’ll find a friend’s ex-boyfriend so irresistible, I’m so madly, deeply, truly in love with that I don’t care he had been with three of my good friends, I just want to be with him. Well, he gotta be that irresistible to have gone out with three of my good friends, right?

That’s just me. Just so you know, I was one who did not want to take my brother’s hand-me-down textbooks. We went through the same syllabus in primary school and mind you, my brother didn’t spend much of his time on his textbooks so they were relatively new. But I insisted on new books. Come to think of it, that was a bit excessive. I was very spoilt. But my brother and I are generous people, never hesitate to give away what we don’t need. Of course, those textbooks went straight to charity as soon as we were done with them. I absolutely have no issue having others enjoying what was mine.

That’s my take on recycling, sharing and taking.

p.s. I don’t borrow clothes either but I’m more than happy to share mind with you. Just make sure you return them, in their original condition.