Oh, why?

I wonder why...

things have to leave you when you think you're having them in your hands?
people make promises that they can't keep?
things turn sour when it's not working?
can't one have the best of both world?
do I have to live in denial at times?
would one tears if it means nothing to you?
do I have everything on my plate one day and have nothing on the other?
am I being such selfish-pig?
is he being selfish too?
it bothers me so much when I thought I don't f*cking give a damn?
does it has to be another one?
does my heart has to contradict with my head?
one can be so cruel?

why...?

Why do I even care? Why?